Thoughts of a dying atheist

I had a really strange dream last night. It started with me and a few friends playing football inside a caravan and it was all fine. Then we were looking at photos and things started to go strange; i became scared and upset and everyone was runnig away from me. The last thing that i can remember was looking out of a window at my friends driving away with this song playing:

eerie whispers
trapped beneath my pillow
you won’t let me see
your memories

and I know you’re in this room
I’m sure I heard you sigh
frozen in between
where our worlds collide

scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see
and it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see

and I know the moment’s near
and there’s nothing you can do
look through a faithless eye
are you afraid to die?

it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see
and it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see

It scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see
and it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see

The song is called “Thoughts of a dying atheist” by Muse….


Why if it is only words do people change so much from reading them? Just a little something here or there can alter the mood of someone in an instant.
“i love you”,
“You lie”,
“fuck you”,
– all just words but can make things change. snide little remarks, a quip, a mutter. Means nothing unless you want to believe in it.
Just be careful what you believe for some things are not meant to be believed, just written.

Shoooooo Moooo

Well hello again, bloody car thieves and stuff. arghhhhh poo heads. dammit stupid gits. yeh well uhuh…

Jess go poop!! it’s good for you honest and eat more ruffage. hehe

Trying to speak

I keep trying to say something but things are still too hot to start. Things need to settle down a bit first. I feel somewhat restricted in how i act or am able to show how i feel, buffered for others sake. Quiet, silent till allowed to speak.

I shall speak later but for now i remain buffered..

Lost for words…

Well it’s a strange thing having a blog. When i didn’t have one i could have put a thousand thoughts onto it, but now that i have one i am strangely silent… strange.
Yesterday was good. Went round to Richards and chilled before work for a bit. was nice to just relax and be out of the house (even if it was just across the road).
Today work was well, bleh (sorry joel stealing your word!!) only had one phone call all evening. Pretty pants really.
Found some new divx software called dr.divx. i’m trying it out at the moment. will find out if it is any good soon.

I still miss you.

Anyhow bed me thinks….
…or surfage….

Well this is my blog….

Well this is my blog. I hope that is becomes nice and full of rants and rubbish that i can produce quite easily. I have been tweaking the code from the original blog by Jonathan Beckett that can be found at so thanks can go to him for the functionality of it all. 😛

Welcome to PLJ Designs

Hi, Well welcome to the latest incarnation of I have finally pulled my finger out and sorted my hosting and am now with Catalyst 2 who are based in the UK and seem very reliable. As you have no doubt noticed my site is still under development with many new and maybe exciting things to come. Please check back often to see if things have progressed at all. Hopefully I should have the majority of the site up by the end of July. Things that I hope to include in this site are; a blog (which will include all of my moaning and anything else that I fancy putting in it), pictures of my pets (in the pet section), music and films that I like and projects that I am doing.